I am jealous of them.
Not because their medical schools are rated higher than ours. Not because the exchange rate is in their favour and they get to see more of my own country than I do. Not even because they are not exposed to as much violence and infection risks as we are.
I’m jealous of the elective students because they are so confident. The don’t hesitate to answer questions on ward rounds (and even if they answer incorrectly they don’t wilt away). And if they do answer incorrectly the doctor won’t scoff at them because they aren’t his students to scoff.
They have such confidence in their knowledge and their skills. I wasn’t always this afraid, was I? Surely this is not my own doing?
I’m jealous because I wonder if maybe their medical school has instilled that kind of confidence in them, and I want to be angry because I don’t feel like that is fostered in us. It does feel as though we are scorned: nasty little students that should be neither seen nor heard. (Note: my current firm is not like this though. They have been very nice.)
Whatever is the use we study hard and fill our logbooks if we are not confident in our profession?
I’m certain a lot of it is up to the student, but I have to wonder why there is such a discrepancy. It’s not like the CONTENT of our course is bad – in fact, we have an excellent exposure to the clinical environment.
I like to think that I am friendly and welcoming to our elective students. I like them. I love hearing about their lives and their courses.
But I do remain a little jealous.