End Of Internship

img_01521So this is it?

Last night I did my last call duty of internship – in Internal Medicine, of all things.

This morning, I finished my post-intake ward round, said a few unceremonious goodbyes, and walked out.

And off I went. 

 

It feels a little anticlimactic, to be honest.

Two years.

I walked into my first day of work so nervous that I trembled too much to place an IV.

A month later I cut my first c-section.

Two months after that I got a needle stick injury.

I learned to amputate fingers. I drilled into legs. I intubated so many times that I started dreaming (literally) about difficult airways.

I heard heart rate monitors in my head while falling asleep post-call.

I once walked out of a casualty theater having placed a chest tube, not remembering a single thing. But the patient was fine.

I walked through dark corridors, afraid.

I had patients who loved me and patients who hated me.

I had horrible days and I had wonderful days.

And I had some very challenging times too, especially recently; and I learned to ask for the help that was not readily available, but eventually found.

The past two years have been the biggest learning curve. And I have been lucky to be in a hospital where there is supervision as well as the opportunity to learn to practise independently.

I’ve changed in ways I can’t quite fathom yet.

I still wake up sometimes thinking, “Really? I’m a doctor?”

There is so much yet to learn.

I’m a little sad to leave all of this behind. To move on.

But I’m also excited for what lies ahead.

Tomorrow I leave for Cape Town, where I’ll be doing my year Community Service posting. I’ll be working with kids for the entire year, and I’m thrilled.

Here’s to the year ahead.

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13 thoughts on “End Of Internship”

  1. Wow Mariechen! You did it!!! And you are going to to continue doing it!!!!!! Well done my friend, yes you really are a doctor, you are real!!!!! Thank you for taking us all along on the journey. You are beautiful and amazing.

    Nancy

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